HolistiSci

Today, I’m exploring how we reconnect with the deepest parts of ourselves.

I’ve spent a lot of my life trying to hide my true self. That part of me that is so deeply connected to spirit. The part that drives my actions and pulls me like a river to my next adventure or moment of pain. When I was a little girl, I used to spend my mornings lying in bed, and in the dawn of the day the “magic marbles” would come. In beautiful dancing colors, they would display themselves and form any shape that I asked them to. I wasn’t imagining it. It was very real.

Over time, they stopped coming. I stopped believing in that truth. It took time for me to find that part of me again. To break through the false veil and crack the foundation of personality. But I’ve found it again.

Those deep parts of ourselves that are our spirit are more real than what we can see, touch, and feel. I’ve learned this in the past years of even deeper spiritual discovery. It’s true that we create our realities. So that if you fear a certain situation or you believe that something will be difficult. It will, in fact, be difficult. And those fears will become your reality. Whatever we believe ourselves to be is exactly what we will be. Your reality can only go as far as your mind will take you.

Pay attention to your fears. Pay attention to your triggers, those people or places that just get under your skin. It’s your spirit’s way of telling you that you need to do forgiveness work.

I’ve shared before that I’ve experienced profound healing through forgiveness. The power was and always will be within me to create my reality. I remember after having twins, my abdomen was no longer what it once was. I had a scar, scar tissue, thinner, saggy skin. And as much as I tried to love it, I couldn’t. I was uncomfortable getting undressed. I was so judgmental of myself that I attracted that same judgment from my husband. It took many years (and before I fully grasped the power of Ho’oponopono for forgiveness), but when I finally fully accepted myself and my beautiful body for what it provided me and that those markings and loose skin were to be celebrated, the judgment stopped from everywhere.

The greatest power you have is being you. Standing fully in your truth. Because if you fully accept and embrace it, no one around you has any space to question it. And if you come up against judgment, forgive it; lack of understanding; forgive it; frustration, forgive it. You are amazing, just as you are. And if you struggle to believe that, forgive it.